Watch, Listen and Follow

imageJesus got up early to pray, it says in the Bible how many times? I have only found one verse that is in Mark 1:35 that says “In the early morning while it was still dark, Jesus got up, left the house, went away to a secluded place and was praying there.” Now I am not here to argue whether it’s better to wake up early and spend time with Jesus first thing or not. I just want to go after something that I feel the spirit showing me. Who has ever felt less than or unworthy because they for some reason just couldn’t wake up in the morning to be with Jesus? Perhaps you feel less holy if you don’t wake up early. I love the morning. I would say I am naturally a morning bird. However, after becoming a mom, I was up at many different hours of the night for a season or two or three. I had to learn to listen, look for and follow God in every moment to receive love from Him in different ways. Lately I have been on a more normal sleeping schedule. This last year I have gotten to up early to run and spend time with Jesus. This has been amazing. I love those moments with Him. The mornings I wake up it seems easier to connect with God throughout my day. The last month of the year, our schedule changed a bit as the weather got colder and we became busier with holiday fun. I found myself having a harder time waking up and with that came a disappointment. I felt more disconnected from Him and missed those times in the morning. I also started noticing I was going back to old patterns of feeling unworthy and even like I needed to earn His attention. Not only did I miss Him I was starting to feel unholy. I was quickly reminded of the previous seasons I had when I couldn’t wake up early, but God still met me. Then I realized God was meeting me just not on my morning run that I wasn’t taking. I began to meet Him again while doing dishes, afternoon runs, naps on the couch , reading the word to my kids as they fell asleep and encounters with others at the grocery store. What is the point? One morning as I lay in bed I heard His whisper, “Melissa, your spot in heaven is secure whether you wake up early or not”. Haha yes that made me laugh too, of course it is,  but oh do I start thinking I can earn righteousness by what I do at times instead of realizing that I am righteous just because that is who I am because of Jesus. There will be times we need to sleep in, or catch up on sleep. Remember, Jesus is right there, right in the now holding our face in His. He is waiting to share His heart with us at any moment in our day. Some mornings we need to wake early, but other times He will get us away with Him at unusaul times and places. The key is to watch, listen, and follow His spirit.

Maybe your new year resolution is just that, re-focus on coming to Him daily in the moments He shows and the whispers He breathes.

Song of Songs says it just right 4:16-5:1

“Then may your awakening breath blow upon my life until I am fully yours. Breathe upon me with your Spirit wind. Stir up the sweet spice of your life within me. Spare nothing as you make me your fruitful garden. Hold nothing back until I release your fragrance. Come walk with me as you walked with Adam in your paradise garden. Come taste the fruits of your life in me. I have come to you, my darling bride, for you are my paradise garden! Come walk with me until I am fully yours. Come taste the fruits of your life in me.”

Thought For Your Day: It’s not too late! Close your eyes and imagine yourself looking up at the clouds with Jesus. Say to Him breathe upone me with your Spirit wind. What would you want to ask Him? What is He saying to you?

We welcome this New Year God with new ways of thinking as we re-focus our eyes on the new ways your speaking to us!






This writing is from a time I spent with Jesus as He has been pursuing me to be like a child this month of December and wonder. Wonder about Him, wonder with me as you read.

This came from Genesis 3. In this passage I started thinking about how God had to have Adam and Eve leave the garden because they had discovered sin, and if they stayed in the garden it would keep them in their “sin state” . He had to come up with the plan of sending Jesus to die for our sin so He could bring us back to His original intention of relationship. That is why they had to leave the garden. He made us to never feel shame, to never be afraid, to never know anything but pure child-like eyes. We were made to trust God and never question if He really loves us. Not because He was mad as some may believe. The only answer was someone paying permanently for our sin, Jesus. Why does He love us soooo much? Is that how He loves me now? With the same intensity that He did when He originally made creation? There are many times I have felt this love, but right now in this moment just wonder with me, what does that feel like. Is He still in love with me and you today, the same. Yes, the answer is yes. As I am writing I can feel this love in my heart and the warmth of His presence on my face. This is love. Walking hand in hand with God in every moment. I love Jeremy Riddle’s new song, “it can only get stronger”. This love can only get stronger and it can only go deeper. Not because of my pursuit of Him but He is relentlessly pursuing me. I like that perspective that everyday my understanding of God’s love for me can only get stronger. How bout throwing away those thoughts that you’re not enough, or your walking backwards, or where the heck is God. Yes, He always knows where we are and His love for us is inviting me and you into a relationship that never gets thrown away but only gets stronger everyday.

This next part came from reading Ecclesiastes 3:11 “He has planted eternity, a divine purpose in the human heart, a mysterious longing which nothing under the sun can satisfy except God, yet man can’t find out what God has done (His overall plan) from the beginning to the end.” Do you ever wonder what it would be like to be fully satisfied? You wake up and make breakfast and your so satisfied that you have a smile from ear to ear. How about a great workout? I enjoy running, but maybe for you its the gym, skateboarding?, bike riding, jumping jacks :-). What if you had a conversation with someone who made you feel so loved you could just jump for joy. What if parenting was so satisfying you forgot about anything else. Ok so I know actually we have all enjoyed something in this life that had meaning and did give us enjoyment. However, I have to say, the times I have let God fully walk with me in my heart and thoughts and conversations, workouts, parenting, cooking and eating of course, marriage and friendships, down times, art sessions. These are the moments that leave me filling fully satisfied. Like so rich that I could just press pause on life and remain in that moment. However, here is the thing with God. He doesn’t leave us. He gives us these rich moments and five seconds later He is still there. I don’t always pay attention, but the moments I do, I am right back to being totally content and full of love. I don’t know of anything in this life that can do that except for God. God makes parenting, marriage, friendships, workouts and art sessions completely beautiful and miraculous. He is the one that allows angels to dance around me, and the divine interacts with earth, this is mysterious and more real than what I see. WONDER for a moment about God and heaven. What is He like right now in your existence.

Last week at church my good friend was speaking about Mary having Jesus and the awe of God. Having child-like eyes to believe the plans He has for us. She showed a picture of her and her family at the Grand Canyon. Her children’s eyes captured the feeling of wonder as they felt so small and yet so big staring into the canyon. God makes us feel as if we are big and so small at the same time. It’s a feeling of safety like a child feels with a grandpa and so small like woah He is way beyond my understanding. Have you ever wondered how big God is? I mean the Bible talks about Him making the universe, and light like electricity flowing from Him. If anything He is pretty powerful yeah. With a glance into His presence the greatness of who He is captures me to the core and exposes my weaknesses and at the same time heals every broken place in my being. I usually take away from my encounters with His love, the feeling of being a child gazing into my purpose. I was made for Him. To know Him. Sometimes we can’t embrace Him when we are holding on to our form of what we think satisfies us, or ideas of what we think we need. If that is the problem, LET GO, just like frozen :-), LET IT GO! The truest gift is Him and He will give you the purest form of what you let go, He will satisfy you in the deepest way possible.

Wonder with me what is God’s original design for relationships, our cities, families? Well, I am sure I have no idea, I can wonder and imagine with God’s help what that may look like. Acts 2 gives us a picture of what a community looked like right after Jesus left and sent the holy spirit. “Change your ways, accept and follow Jesus as Messiah.. And you will receive the gift of the Holy Spirit, for you and your children…”vs 43 “ a sense of awe was felt by everyone and many wonders and signs…they shared everything, praising God continuously.” When God came up with a plan to bring us back to relationship with God, He gave us Holy Spirit to live inside of us. He sent the greatest gift of all. This gift comforts us, helps us hear , gives us special gifts and abilities to make God known in many ways in our lives which brings Him glory. He gave us the greatest gift truth, which sets us free and allows us to walk humbly before God and others. What if we all embraced Jesus, and we woke up everyday without any fear. We made breakfast for ourselves and neighbors daily, came over to each other’s houses and shared meals, clothes, conversation, went on runs or bike rides, leave our front doors unlocked because no one is afraid of anything. We didn’t need to use money because we all shared so nicely 🙂 ha. I know this must be heaven. Yet there has to be the perfect idea of school, and what is going to work meant to be, not because we needed money but because this was our gift. Our God-given gift we were born with.

This Christmas I pray we can wonder, be in awe, and imagine what God can do, and who He can be for us and in us. He designed us to walk with HIm, in the most perfect and intimate relationship imaginable. Right now in Jesus name , through the power of the holy spirit I lift off of you every limitation off your imagination to dream with God. I lift off any small pictures of God and pray that your eyes would see just as He created you to.

With all the love I have,

Merry Christmas



I want to walk with you

Like you made me to

I want to shine

With your light

I want to feel your love

Deep inside

Let heaven and earth collide

In this place


This painting was inspired by the polar express. So much is possible if we believe.

Jesus My Reward



Jesus is my reward. His approval of my actions, His approval of my heart, His approval of my parenting, my behavior in my relationships. His smile at the end of the day and throughout is my reward. His love is for us no matter what , but I love partaking in His love. There is a book in the Bible, called Ruth. She married into a God-fearing family. She left her family and her home and married into this culture that was foreign to her. However, God became her greatest reward. When her husband, brother and father died and left her sister in-law, and her mom in-law, and herself widowed, she decided to stay with this new family. What compelled her to stay? Her widowed mom in-law told her to go back to her country, she released her and her sister- in-law from their family duty to take care of her. However, Ruth stayed. She said the most beautiful thing to her. “Don’t urge me to leave you or turn back from you. Where you go, I will go, and where you stay I will stay. Your people will be my people and your God will be my God. “ Ruth 1:16 Later in the story she meets a man who is considered her mom-in-laws Kinsmen Redeemer. A kinsman redeemer is one that is to act on behalf of a relative who was in trouble, danger or need, He was a wealthy man, who was kind and compassionate. She asked him to be her husband. Boaz was his name. She came to him and threw herself at his feet and told Him she would be his wife if he would take her. He sure did. He was undone that she came to Him. I encourage you to read the story! However, He is depiction of Christ. What Christ did. He is offering us his redemption, to deliver and rescue us. He wants to marry us, to take us in, to provide for all of our debts, to care for us, help us, everyday, day in and day out. This story always means alot to me. A few years back I was reading this story and God reached into my heart and breathed, I am your kinsman redeemer. Come to me daily and let me be that for you everyday. You know we have a choice to allow Jesus to meet every need we have. He can be our greatest reward. He can be the reason we live for. There are so many great rewards and reasons to live for. However, none of them will heal us, love us, save us, redeem us, provide for us, be the friend we need, and counselor, like only He can. As the season of Christmas is approaching and the year is wrapping up once again. Take time to be with Him. THe one who is the reward. He, His presence, is the best gift we could ever receive. Every other reward is secondary.


Hebrews 11:6 “But without faith it is impossible to please Him, for He who comes to God must believe that He is and that He is a rewarder of those who diligently seek Him. “

James 4:8 “ Draw near to God and He will draw near to you..”

Right now just say out loud, Jesus be my reward today. Be the reason I live today. Show me your heart for me. Show me that you are undone when I come to you as I am. I just want to know you and your heart.

Song : The more I seek you (steffany Gretzinger and Jeremy Riddle)




imageThe last week or so all I want to do is worship. Worship. What does that mean? It means look at God and give Him me. I like to sing to Him. I enjoy thinking about Him. I love sitting with Him and letting Him wash me with kindness and love and fill up my empty spaces. I am currently doing a 30 day “Feasting On the Spirit” challenge by Wendy Backlund. Each day we focus on truth and speak it, think about it , and remind ourselves what is true. I just love it. I have been doing this every year at this time of the year for the last 4 years. Each year it’s different and each year its is new. When I renew my mind with what is true, life is easy. Jesus becomes my resting place and I can live from rest!

Here are a few of my favorite quotes for so far:

“ I am confident and fearless. I arise and shine with His Glory which causes others to come to Christ. Love and compassion radiate through me. I have the resources of Heaven to fulfill my Destiny. I am one with Jesus the Father, and the Holy Spirit.”

“Instead of being a victim to the prevailing spirit, consciously imagine yourself carrying the presence of God and emanating His grace, love and peace everywhere you go. Watch and look for physical reactions to the presence you carry.”

When we invite Holy Spirit in our lives He gives us all of God. He gives us the light and 1 John 1:7 says We will walk in the light and have fellowship with others. The light is always more powerful than darkness. Jesus is the light. He gives us everything. Worship comes from that place of gratitude and love for Him.

If your interested in more of how to renew your mind I suggest you look up Wendy Backlund and “Igniting Hope Ministries”. I would also be happy to share my experience with that too! Have a day of great JOY and HOPE!




The Joy of the Lord is your strength. I remember a few years back hearing those words and telling myself that. But I couldn’t find joy. Recently I have found so much joy and it comes in the little things. I heard someone once say, “collect joy”. Collect joy like you would starbucks ;-). Collect joy like you would leaves. The geese flying  by in the sky this time a year, the giggles of my kids, the hot cup of tea, the word of God, music, dressing in costumes :-). My husband was out of town for the weekend and I had the privilege of single “momming” it. I let God lead us through our day. We had so much fun being on an adventure. We went to explore the American River, and tried a new coffee place, and I tried out “hand lettering” , and we went to the park and pizza. It might sound exhausting with 3 littles but we had so much fun I could’ve kept going! Joy is not in doing , but I believe it is the spirit of adventure that brings joy to life in us. Today embrace the adventure God has for you even if it is doing dishes, or working on a computer. Look for Him like a treasure. He is everywhere ready to help us find joy ! image2.jpgimage




Song of Songs 8:6-7

Place this fierce, unrelenting fire over your entire being.

Rivers of pain and persecution will never extinguish this flame.

Endless floods will be unable to quench this raging fire

That burns within you.

Everything will be consumed.

It will stop at nothing as you yield everything to this furious fire

Until it won’t even seem to you like a sacrifice anymore

Can you imagine what your city would look like if it were blanketed by His glory?

This was a question in a book I am reading. Previous to that question, I had been thinking about God’s love. His raw, unconditional love. His intoxicating love. The verse I chose above from Song of Songs in my opinion so clearly portrays what this love is like. It is unrelenting fire that goes after us. It can almost sound scary unless you actually have tasted love. Love is intoxicating. There is no human love that I have ever felt that compares to God’s love. One moment in His love can literally heal pain that has been there for 20 years. I know. I have experienced this. However, it requires one to yield to Him. To give up the things that seem like they are protecting us, our fears, our walls, our ideals, letting go and letting Him in can feel scary. So what would His love crashing in on a city even look like or feel like or sound like? I would love to hear your answers.

Here is what I can imagine:

If God’s presence came down like a cloud of love, I believe people would be weeping because of love. We would feel safe. We would be outside in the streets and on the sidewalks talking to our neighbors, kids playing. Laughter would feel the air, because joy would be overflowing. There would be such purity in our hearts as we talk to one another, hearts would become healed from years and generations of pain. Moms, dads, grandparents would become whole and healthy. I think people would be up in the middle of the night running , exercising, looking at the stars more. You wouldn’t hear gunshots, and yelling down the street or in your home, you would hear music, laughter, deep conversations, and peace. People would sleep better, do less, and do more with intention. We would not be so busy being busy. Church would look so outside of our box. Church would be full on Sunday, but it would be full throughout the week at the grocery store, at coffee shops, in the mall, at the restaurants and workplaces. There would be no sickness and people would get up from their wheelchairs. People would be painting on walls not because they were destroying property but out of artistic expression and even what they see in heaven. Bands would be playing outside more, we would give things away more. Homelessness would stop existing because people wouldn’t feel like they were orphans but sons and daughters with a purpose and a home. People would recognize God more, we would probably see angels. We would hear Him. We would have deep and lasting friendships with people without the fear of being rejected if we did something wrong. I believe God wants us to encounter Him and is waiting for people to get a vision and ask for Him to be with our cities. Display your strength God. We yield to your unrelenting fire, your love and desire relationship with you. We want you!

Wonder Shoes

“It’s time to go in. I see Jesus put my soccer shoes on my feet.” I have short hair and I am only 7 years old. Jesus picks me up and puts me on my shoulders. “Just be your best, you don’t have to be the best……”

I had a dream in the night and it was about people I knew from my past. The people in my dream were somewhat stars of the day, doing their gift well in front of others. I was sitting in a crowd watching. My parents were on one side and some pastor friends were on the other. The pastor turned toward me with a picture of a professional soccer player and said, does anyone you know need these wonder shoes. There were more details but for the purpose of this blog I am only including some of this dream. It was later that day, Holy Spirit started revealing the meaning of this dream which I included above. “It’s time to go in. I see Jesus put my soccer shoes on my feet.” I have short hair and I am only 7 years old. Jesus picks me up and puts me on my shoulders. “Just be your best, you don’t have to be the best……” I played soccer growing up. Many of my years playing though I sat the bench. I waited for my “time” to get in the game. Part of the problem was I didn’t have confidence so I didn’t always earn that position to get a lot of playing time. Over the years, God has always used this in my life and referred back to this time period. We don’t have to be perfect to get in the “game”. He is just asking us to be our best and be confident of who we are. That means be His daughter/son and get on His shoulders and let Him run around with us while we get to enjoy the victory playing our part with Jesus. It’s His strength. It seems like now more than ever in my own life and the days that we are living in, God is calling His sons and daughters to rise up, to get in the game and be our best. I love the idea of “wonder” shoes. We were made to wonder about what God is up to and participate in being a wonder to this generation. He wants to demonstrate His power and love through us and be a wonder! It’s time to forget the past, the former things and run with all our hearts to the future. This isn’t done in our own strength but in His. There are dreams, He put in my heart as a little girl and I hear Him telling me to remember them, He is not done yet. I love Philippians 3:12-14 “ I run with passion into HIs abundance so I may reach the destiny Christ Jesus has called me to fulfill and discover. I don’t do any of this in my own strength to accomplish this. However, I do have one compelling focus: I forget all the past and fasten my heart toward the future instead. I run straight toward the divine invitation of reaching the heavenly goal and gaining the victory-prize through the anointing of Christ.” It’s time for childlike wonder and dreams from God to be accomplished through His anointing and strength, with Him, for His glory.

I choose you

image“Come to me all who are weary and heavy burdened and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you. Let me teach you, because I am humble and gentle at heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy to bear, and the burden I give you is light. “ Matthew 11:28-30

Amplified Version

28 “Come to Me, all who are weary and heavily burdened [by religious rituals that provide no peace], and I will give you rest [refreshing your souls with salvation].

Last week God started revealing parts of my heart that I didn’t like very much. Instead of what I used to do, which was try to do everything I could do figure out how to be my own savior and to fix it or make that better, I ran to Him. All week I started running to Jesus. Practically that looked like me walking around the house saying I surrender I don’t know what to do. I had no idea that “all the things” I was doing to just be with Jesus, or be a responsible grown up, had become heavy burdens. To me I was doing good things. Right. Waking up early to run, worshipping, trying to eat good, taking care of my family, I was on top of it. However, none of that was giving me Jesus. I was starting to feel empty and tired again. It didn’t make sense I had been doing the same things for the last 6 months and had been encountering Jesus . Than all of the sudden just felt blah and felt like I wasn’t hearing Him throughout all my day. Where did I miss Him? He never leaves us so I knew He was there but I just felt a distance between us. Last week, as I was praying, Jesus grabbed me in His arms and said, Melissa, I choose you. I cried. The enemy tries to make me feel ashamed anytime God reveals these things in my heart. But ya know what. I don’t take that bait anymore either. I am a daughter, I know I am loved and He found pleasure in me before I ever knew Him. So now that I am getting to know Him, He still loves me I don’t have to have it figured out. In fact, I will never have it figure out!

There is so much freedom right there. He has had to slow me down so I can rest and lean back in His chest. Rest! Rest in Him. Be, sit down with Him. Let Him do all the talking.

We have a practice in my home called quiet time. Its something I look forward to everyday of my life. I love me some tea/coffee and reading, music, or whatever it is to be with Jesus. My two year old takes a nap, and my five year old and seven year old when he’s home has quiet time. I have them read or play quietly on their bed or in their room. My middle son gets so much out of imagining and playing but sometimes he gets so carried away. He doesn’t know the concept of being quiet. I found him running down the hall, going in and out of his room etc. You get the picture. However, I am not ok with this. I can’t rest for even a minute if that’s happening. So finally, I took the toys and told him that until he learns to follow my directions he needs to stay on his bed and we will try again tomorrow. This made him so sad, he cried. I left feeling so sad. I asked the Lord did I hurt him? The Lord said yes, and I realize it was because he loves playing so much that of course that hurt to take his toys away. However, I was sad that I had to be the one to discipline him. I had to take away the very thing he loved so much so he can learn to obey. As soon as I realized that, I might look like the bad guy in his eyes, I broke down. I did it because I love him. I went back in his room to see how he was, he had fallen asleep. Probably the thing he needed to do anyway. I realized that this was alot like what God was walking me through last week. I knew I needed to slow down and rest in Him. I was afraid of slowing down. I was afraid if I stopped “doing” all the things I loved in hopes to connect with Him, I didn’t know how to connect with God. Ha. That makes me laugh now, He is so much bigger. The real problem was there were things in my heart that I couldn’t see that He wanted to heal. That is what was keeping me from being still with Him. So I was “doing” alot of things that were wearing me out. They weren’t fulfilling me anymore because my heart was bleeding and I didn’t know it and He wanted to heal me. So He ran after me. He chose me.

I choose you. That’s what Jesus says to me. That’s what He says to you. He chooses you. He runs to you and chooses you no matter what. What is your response to His love? When there is a disconnect. Just walk around everyday if you have to and say I surrender God. We can walk away or we can come in for the bear hug and receive this love. Yes, it feels painful for a moment when He reveals the pain in our heart but it feels so good when we allow Him in to heal us! There is freedom and love that He has for us. Once we choose to respond to Him, it is much easier to choose our spouse, kids and all the others God has given us to love!

You are Valuable

img_6683When I was in college I had an experience with Jesus and it changed my life forever. I was spending time listening to a song by an artist named Jason Upton. He was singing about Jesus on the cross and sang as if Jesus were talking, “ I died for Jenny, I died for ….”. I was laying on my bed and I remember this moment so clearly. I all of the sudden felt like a wind in my room except there was no air and I felt like an angel put his hand on my head to lay it down. I didn’t physically see an angel but I knew that something heavenly was in my room. As I lay down I could see with my eyes closed, Jesus on the cross. He looked at me and said, “I died for you Melissa. If you were the only one in the world I would do it again just for you. That is how much I love you. I did it to be with you. I don’t need you to tell another person about me, or do another thing for me. I just want to be with you.” The moment marked my life! I don’t know about you, but I spent most of my life trying to earn love. I thought I needed to do something to be loved by God or get His attention. Could He really see me and did He really notice me if I wasn’t doing something “holy”. Turns out He does! He sees me all the time and no matter what kind of behavior I have He still finds me absolutely valuable and lovely. I have never met a person who can love me like He does. I have had a lot of people love me with amazing love but still nothing comes close to His absolute acceptance of me in my worst moments. It has taken me a lot of years to actually accept my value and worth. When I became a wife and then a mom I had to work through this reality on a whole new level. It has also taken me a long time to love myself and others with this kind of love. There is no human way possible to give free love to people without expecting something in return unless you feel so loved deep down in the core of who you are by God. For the longest time I thought I had to do something to be loved and it turns out it was actually just opening up my heart to how God was already pouring love out on me. He was pouring love on me everyday and I couldn’t see it because I thought I had to earn it. If I messed up then I thought I had to earn back His love. This is not what love is.

The other day I was walking with my two year old and it dawned on me that I absolutely love the season of life I am in. I love walking with my son, being a mom, looking at flowers and headed to a friends house. I love each moment, with each person, and I love being by myself because I finally love who God made me to be. Just two years back I had felt so low that I didn’t feel loved know matter how much I declared I was loved, or how much someone told me I was loved, I couldn’t receive it. All I could do was cry out for God to breakthrough my pain and loneliness and crash in with love. He did! He did and to me it was miraculous. I don’t even know how He did it but one day I woke up from a bad dream and realized that there was hope!

Why do I share these stories with you? I read the news, the facebook posts, I hear other people’s cry for love. I know I am not alone and if that’s you, respond today for help! Ask God to help you and send me an email, or let someone know! You are valued by the one who created you, and because of that I value you too!

Here is a place to start. Read back through the encounter I had with Jesus on the cross. Imagine Jesus, the one written about in scripture as the son of God. Imagine that He really did die on a cross and raised up from the dead. Imagine Him dying a horrible death just for you. To pay the price of your sin, pain, sins done to you, and invite you into a real relationship with God. Who is up close and personal not far away. He is huge and majestic and yet right here. He is a perfect Father. The kind you would imagine, one that you could lay your head upon His chest. Imagine your name He calls out and says, I would do it for you, just for you. I love you that much! Here is the song I listened to, I believe right now, as you listen to this song it will draw you into His love too!

“He had to have us” Key of David

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        My oldest son had a hard time sleeping a few nights back. He kept waking up but he was still asleep and it seemed like he was in an intense dream. He was crying. I woke up several times praying for Him. In the morning I was exhausted. I came to sit with the Father God and He started reminding me. “Melissa I am your shepherd.” I started asking  questions like, what does a shepherd do? Well, a shepherds role is to care, feed, teach, and protect the sheep. The sheep’s role is to listen to the shepherd, and let Him care for him. So I asked Jesus how do you want me to know you today as my shepherd?

He said, ” I want to restore you and all that was lost in rest.” I felt as though He was not just speaking about that night but how tired I had felt from not getting the rest I needed over a period of time. I also was concerned for my son. I want him to be safe at night and know His shepherd. In that moment in my spirit mind,  I saw Jesus blow the breath of God over me. I also heard Him say, ” I give you the day, vitality, breath, let my water wash over you, just come to the table and we will share a meal in the presence of your enemies.” Did you know the word Shepherd in Psalm 23, and John 10 is the same meaning as the word pastor? I have had many good pastors and not so great pastors. However, Jesus is the perfect one. When I imagine what a pastors job is it is not much different than a shepherd. John 10:13 says this , “the hired hand runs away because he’s only working for the money and doesn’t really care about the sheep.” Jesus is such a good pastor and shepherd that its not about what He gets from us or from his role as a shepherd. He is so rooted in the love of the Father that He has passion and compassion unified and loves tending to us. He loves watching us play, grow, and is ready to share a meal with us when the enemy is right there  (Psalm 23).  I love Isaiah 40:11, ” He will feed his flock like a shepherd. He will carry his lambs in his arms, hodling them close to his heart. He will gently lead the Mother Sheep with their young.”I felt as though the Shepherd Jesus was reminding me His true passion to run after me and my son. That He’s got us and is tending to our needs. I know that He is also ready to tend to your needs.

 So right now let that truth wash over you today, that Jesus, the good and perfect shepherd is coming after us today. He is tending to our every need. He is ready to refresh us and wash over us. Below I have linked a song and sermon that really help me rest in the love of God.