This writing is from a time I spent with Jesus as He has been pursuing me to be like a child this month of December and wonder. Wonder about Him, wonder with me as you read.

This came from Genesis 3. In this passage I started thinking about how God had to have Adam and Eve leave the garden because they had discovered sin, and if they stayed in the garden it would keep them in their “sin state” . He had to come up with the plan of sending Jesus to die for our sin so He could bring us back to His original intention of relationship. That is why they had to leave the garden. He made us to never feel shame, to never be afraid, to never know anything but pure child-like eyes. We were made to trust God and never question if He really loves us. Not because He was mad as some may believe. The only answer was someone paying permanently for our sin, Jesus. Why does He love us soooo much? Is that how He loves me now? With the same intensity that He did when He originally made creation? There are many times I have felt this love, but right now in this moment just wonder with me, what does that feel like. Is He still in love with me and you today, the same. Yes, the answer is yes. As I am writing I can feel this love in my heart and the warmth of His presence on my face. This is love. Walking hand in hand with God in every moment. I love Jeremy Riddle’s new song, “it can only get stronger”. This love can only get stronger and it can only go deeper. Not because of my pursuit of Him but He is relentlessly pursuing me. I like that perspective that everyday my understanding of God’s love for me can only get stronger. How bout throwing away those thoughts that you’re not enough, or your walking backwards, or where the heck is God. Yes, He always knows where we are and His love for us is inviting me and you into a relationship that never gets thrown away but only gets stronger everyday.

This next part came from reading Ecclesiastes 3:11 “He has planted eternity, a divine purpose in the human heart, a mysterious longing which nothing under the sun can satisfy except God, yet man can’t find out what God has done (His overall plan) from the beginning to the end.” Do you ever wonder what it would be like to be fully satisfied? You wake up and make breakfast and your so satisfied that you have a smile from ear to ear. How about a great workout? I enjoy running, but maybe for you its the gym, skateboarding?, bike riding, jumping jacks :-). What if you had a conversation with someone who made you feel so loved you could just jump for joy. What if parenting was so satisfying you forgot about anything else. Ok so I know actually we have all enjoyed something in this life that had meaning and did give us enjoyment. However, I have to say, the times I have let God fully walk with me in my heart and thoughts and conversations, workouts, parenting, cooking and eating of course, marriage and friendships, down times, art sessions. These are the moments that leave me filling fully satisfied. Like so rich that I could just press pause on life and remain in that moment. However, here is the thing with God. He doesn’t leave us. He gives us these rich moments and five seconds later He is still there. I don’t always pay attention, but the moments I do, I am right back to being totally content and full of love. I don’t know of anything in this life that can do that except for God. God makes parenting, marriage, friendships, workouts and art sessions completely beautiful and miraculous. He is the one that allows angels to dance around me, and the divine interacts with earth, this is mysterious and more real than what I see. WONDER for a moment about God and heaven. What is He like right now in your existence.

Last week at church my good friend was speaking about Mary having Jesus and the awe of God. Having child-like eyes to believe the plans He has for us. She showed a picture of her and her family at the Grand Canyon. Her children’s eyes captured the feeling of wonder as they felt so small and yet so big staring into the canyon. God makes us feel as if we are big and so small at the same time. It’s a feeling of safety like a child feels with a grandpa and so small like woah He is way beyond my understanding. Have you ever wondered how big God is? I mean the Bible talks about Him making the universe, and light like electricity flowing from Him. If anything He is pretty powerful yeah. With a glance into His presence the greatness of who He is captures me to the core and exposes my weaknesses and at the same time heals every broken place in my being. I usually take away from my encounters with His love, the feeling of being a child gazing into my purpose. I was made for Him. To know Him. Sometimes we can’t embrace Him when we are holding on to our form of what we think satisfies us, or ideas of what we think we need. If that is the problem, LET GO, just like frozen :-), LET IT GO! The truest gift is Him and He will give you the purest form of what you let go, He will satisfy you in the deepest way possible.

Wonder with me what is God’s original design for relationships, our cities, families? Well, I am sure I have no idea, I can wonder and imagine with God’s help what that may look like. Acts 2 gives us a picture of what a community looked like right after Jesus left and sent the holy spirit. “Change your ways, accept and follow Jesus as Messiah.. And you will receive the gift of the Holy Spirit, for you and your children…”vs 43 “ a sense of awe was felt by everyone and many wonders and signs…they shared everything, praising God continuously.” When God came up with a plan to bring us back to relationship with God, He gave us Holy Spirit to live inside of us. He sent the greatest gift of all. This gift comforts us, helps us hear , gives us special gifts and abilities to make God known in many ways in our lives which brings Him glory. He gave us the greatest gift truth, which sets us free and allows us to walk humbly before God and others. What if we all embraced Jesus, and we woke up everyday without any fear. We made breakfast for ourselves and neighbors daily, came over to each other’s houses and shared meals, clothes, conversation, went on runs or bike rides, leave our front doors unlocked because no one is afraid of anything. We didn’t need to use money because we all shared so nicely 🙂 ha. I know this must be heaven. Yet there has to be the perfect idea of school, and what is going to work meant to be, not because we needed money but because this was our gift. Our God-given gift we were born with.

This Christmas I pray we can wonder, be in awe, and imagine what God can do, and who He can be for us and in us. He designed us to walk with HIm, in the most perfect and intimate relationship imaginable. Right now in Jesus name , through the power of the holy spirit I lift off of you every limitation off your imagination to dream with God. I lift off any small pictures of God and pray that your eyes would see just as He created you to.

With all the love I have,

Merry Christmas



I want to walk with you

Like you made me to

I want to shine

With your light

I want to feel your love

Deep inside

Let heaven and earth collide

In this place


This painting was inspired by the polar express. So much is possible if we believe.


Trust is a Must

Trust me

Trust me when its easy

Trust me when its hard

Trust me when you don’t see me

Trust me in others around you

Trust me when others are failing you and confusion seems thick

Trust me when the accuser tries to say things about you that aren’t true

Keep your eyes on me

I will hold your hand through all of this

Trust me when the only one that knows your truest identity is me (Jesus)

and others aren’t ready to trust you yet

I will shine in you and those around you as you allow fear to go

I will let you know the answer

Remember this you are valuable

Those around you are too

walk in love even though it takes work

lean in instead of out

don’t quit or get discouraged

Trust is a must


New Creation


I am a New Creation

I am not just walking around with skin on

I can see the promise land

I can see life with color

The impossible is possible


A heart that beats

I’m not a robot going through motions

The king loves me and I love the King






Butterfly, do what you were created for

Do it Alive

Fully Awake

Do not go back to the cocoon

Alive is Good

Open Spaces

Fear , Disapointment , Fade

I’m Alive

I’m Alive

I’m Alive


Everything Comes from being with you

I’ll remain

Be with

I’ll stay

To be with you